Can't believe it's been a month already!

It's been a little over a month since my last post, and a LOT has happened since then!
I finally figured out WHY I felt like I was drowning! I was so ungrateful for the blessings in my life! I would sit and think about what I COULD have had and what I COULD have been if I'd only made better choices. Yes, there are incorrect decisions that I've made, but it was NOT the incorrect path! THIS is who I am MEANT to be, and THIS is what I am SUPPOSED to be doing! I've become more able to understand God's purpose for me, now that I am not thinking about what I had desired my life to be like, and what I had previously worked towards. I would always wonder why God made me so intelligent and gave me SUCH a desire to learn! It's so I can better raise my children. So I can homeschool them, and know WHAT I am teaching them! NOT so I can have some fancy career that this world had brain-washed me into thinking that I JUST HAD TO HAVE! Yes, I COULD have gone FAR in life career-wise, but a career means NOTHING to me anymore! I am a mother. I am a wife. I am a child of God! I am doing what God wants me to do, and I have found that I want it to! It's not that I didn't love my children. I was SEVERELY confused on who I was supposed to be. We are not the traditional family. My husband and I are 22 yrs old. We have three children all born within 2 yrs and 4 months of each other from three different pregnancies. We don't have a car or own a house. I am not legally allowed to drive due to epilepsy, and my husband doesn't even have a permit to drive anymore, because they wouldn't allow him to transfer it when we moved here from AZ. I lost his social security card, so he doesn't even have that anymore. there are SEVERAL things we need to do in order to get a car and move away from this atrocious neighbor of ours, but we are having a very difficult time with that. All of that being said, I STILL wouldn't wish to be anyone else! I am losing weight and am able to do more for my family. My confidence is boosted, and I am moving forward with my life! I REFUSE to be ANYone other than the person that God has intended for me to be! I am sure the LORD will give us a great many more children, and what blessings they'll be! I was supposed to be weighed and measured on Friday, but I've missed tons of Curves sessions due to depression, being  busy, and my husband working so much that he's been needing to sleep when he's home(for however short a time period that is). I am going to try to go in tomorrow because that (I think) is the only day this week that I will be able to due to my hubby's work schedule(his schedule is 100% my fault because I ROYALLY messed up our finances). I'm going to try to get a bit of sleep in, because I have some stuff to do tonight. Goodnight all!

STRESSED and in PAIN!

There was NOTHING good about today. I felt as if I were drowning, somehow was able to fight my way to the surface, and no sooner did I take in one small gasp of air, someone shoved me all the way back down to the cold, dark depths of the sea. I have been doing MUCH MUCH more than my body should be doing, and my body eventually didn't want to move anymore. I landed face-first in my bed, and just couldn't move. About a half hour later, I was able to get out of bed, but my body hurt worse than before.  Not five minutes went by today when the kids weren't acting horribly, so I finally strapped them into their booster seats and left the room. I was so tired of spanking them and yelling at them. I have to have regular time away from them or my home is NOT going to be a happy one! I do love my kids, and wouldn't trade them for anything, but I am tired of it being a huge fight and struggle just for me to get a shower in! The good news is: I get to go back to curves tomorrow! I can't WAIT to get rid of this pain all over my body! Even my ankles are BARELY holding up! Stress reliever anybody?!

WOO HOO!

I can now fit into sweats that I haven't been able to wear for a couple of years! They aren't uncomfortable to wear either!

Curves and stuff update 3/23/11

Today was a pretty good day for me except that my hives re-appeared  and got worse in places that weren't very affected before. Washed my comforters and put new sheet on the bed. We'll see if that was the cause.... Cindy had a terrible day today, because she's in a HUGE amount of pain. She's had this certain pain many times in the past, and it'll take days at the LEAST for her to heal. If you are not currently praying for her, please do so. This pain she's in is crippling her. :(  Don't be discouraged Cindy, you can get over this obstacle too! And Cinny, just pray, and know you are being prayed for by god-fearing people who love you!

It was a not-so-good day for me today. :(

I had a LARGE amount of seizures during Zumba today! It was SO HORRIBLE! I felt retarded and humiliated(and of course confused). I had to stop a little early, and Michelle(the owner) had me sit at her desk. I got up though because I was crying and didn't want anyone to see or be distracted by me. Michelle let me cry on her and told me that there was nothing to be embarrassed about. She was very sweet and called me after I got home to make sure I'd made a neurology appointment. Michelle also offered to give me private Zumba lessons so I don't have to concentrate so hard(whic is why I had so many seizures today. It was a new routine.) Cindy also was super and made sure I'd made a neurology apppointment(and is taking me on Thursday to it), and assured me that there was nothing to be embarrassed about-that people were concerned and wondered if I had low blood sugar. I feel like I was there maybe 5 minutes, but I was there for an hour! That's how many seizures I had! I HATE HATE HATE EPILEPSY!

TWO-count 'em TWO Zumba classes today!

Cindy and I did two Zumba classes today! I was pretty wiped out during the second one, but I am starting to get the moves down! This is going to be great! My body... well, it feels like I've just done some massive excercising, but all in all, I feel so much better! My clothing is starting to get loose! YAY! I have a printout of my beginning weight and inches. I also have written down what I've already lost. I need to get a notebook to jot this down in!

Appointment canceled! It feel so very good to know that one day I won't feel like I am 80yrs old! I was weighed and measured on 3/11/11 (one week after starting and one week ago), and I had lost 1/4" off my bust, 1/2" off my abdomen, 3/4" off my hips, 1/2" off my thighs, and 1/4" off my arms. I Lost one pound on the scale. I lost 6.2lbs of body fat which is equivilent to 1.7% of the 16.9-28.9%(which leaves 15.5-27.2% of body fat to lose!) that I need to lose! Hurray! My next weighing and measuring will be in two weeks, April 1st. Can't wait!!

Feeling good!

It's two weeks since I joined curves! I have an appointment on tuesday for my back and hips, but I'm going to cancel it because I don't need pain medicine anymore!

I believe that the last post I posted was about Saturday's zumba class. Well, I was SO happy to finally get back to curves on Monday! This is something that I really love, and the fact that I get to do it with my best friend, just makes it that much more fun! Oh, and the environment is EXCELLENT! The other women that come are fabulous! I know that it is already working for me. I feel like the weight is melting off of me, and my body isn't as fragile as it was!  My back hasn't seized up, my hips haven't given out, and the place where I had my three C-sections done, feels stronger and it doesn't really hurt all that much anymore! I tell ya-curves is the place to go, if you want results! I have only gone four times since I started 6 days ago, but I feel so much better, and I intend to go Mon-Sat. Tuesdays and Saturdays I intend to do zumba(as long as I am coordinated enough to do it. I'm so excited!

1st Day at Curves and 1st Zumba Class:

SOOOO, Curves was fabulous, and an incredible amount of fun! Definitely going Monday through Friday as long as Tony, health, and time allow! I want to try to get Zumba down, because it really is fun! I'm just not a very coordinated person, but I hope I can get it pretty close to right! There are so many dances! The environment is great, and going with Cinny's the best! Can't wait to go back on Monday!!

The very beginning

I'm starting Curves tomorrow with my BFF Cinny! I am so excited and cannot wait to have this time with her and lose all this baby weight! I have three baby boys. They were all born within a 2yr 4mo. time period(the youngest of which is 6mo. old), and ALL from different gestation periods(pregnancies)! I never had time to lose the weight, and the cravings would stick with me. Now, I am close to a hundred pounds heavier! Time to nip this in the bud! My goal is to lose 50lbs before January 1st(this was one of my new years' resolutions). Please pray for myself and my wonderful friend Cindy, as we embark on this difficult journey to get healthy-together. :)